Tuesday, November 24

angry spiel alert!



You know what annoys me? 

well, ok, there are quite a few things, like people kicking my chair in the cinema or when people are really dense. but i can't possibly rant about it all now. 

Now, i just really want to talk about how annoying it is when people spell stuff wrong on purpose when they text or instant message. 

short hand is fine. so are acronyms. 

but is it really that difficult to spell out 'then'? must you spell it with a 'd'? just because you pronounce it that way when you talk does not mean that thats the way its spelt. 

its not about good grammar or even good spelling. not everyone has that. I can never remember if 'tomorrow' has two 'm's or two 'r's. BUT it obviously does not have any 'L's. 

also, 'today' is not spelt 'todae'. it is not cute. I mean, whats the point? you type out the same amount of letters! 

seriously. what is the point? because no one would want to appear less educated. 

would they? 


sigh. 




ok, that was my condescending pissy rant, now that i'm done, i would like to add that i do know some very smart and nice people who do sometimes type 'dun'. so, i know it doesn't really reflect on a persons personality. 

its still irksome though. 

Saturday, November 7

dear First year of Uni,




You certainly went by faster than expected. I still remember arriving in the heat of summer feb 09, not knowing a thing about the transport system, missing bak chor mee already and meeting my housemates for the very first time. 

You've been an awesome experience. Though not all your lectures were great, the one where we watched Battleship Potemkin is three hours of my life i'll never get back, most of them were worth it. Cliched as it sounds, you've helped me grow as an adult and as a writer. 

Thank you for all the good times, the times when i got an assignment back and i got a good mark, the times when CLV gave us free pancakes, the times when all us girls played four kings, the time when i got my birthday surprise and for whenever a class went so well that i stopped and thought 'man, i love being here'. 

Thanks for the 'bad' times too (cause we learnt from them or at least we get to laugh about them now), when there were maggots in our bin, when the neighbours were playing their bad music so loud that the walls vibrated, when we ran out of toilet paper or clean underwear and when i'd left an assignment so late that i had to run all the way to assignment minder to get it in with seconds to spare. 

So, for all the memories, for the friends that became family, for the stories and the late nights, 

cheers, 

Love, Mel


Tuesday, October 27

twenty days to go






Neil Gaiman is going to be in Singapore on Nov 1. He'll be speaking at the Singapore Writers Fest about graphic novels and fantasy. The talk is free and will be held at the Arts House. 

I cannot begin to explain the sense of loss i feel at the fact that i shall not be able to attend, seeing as how i'm in australia still. its really ironic and annoying. 

Neil is probably my favorite writer, the things he does with fantasy and the art that he has made of story telling is truly amazing. the man's a genius. 

the following is an excerpt from his book 'American Gods', 

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I can believe things that are true and I can believe things that aren't true and I can believe things where nobody knows if they're true or not. I can believe in Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and Marilyn Monroe and the Beatles and Elvis and Mister Ed. Listen–I believe that people are perfectible, that knowledge is infinite, that the world is run by secret banking cartels and is visited by aliens on a regular basis, nice ones who look like wrinkledy lemurs and bad ones who mutilate cattle and want our water and our women.  I believe that the future sucks and I believe that the future rocks and I believe that one day White Buffalo Woman is going to come back and kick everyone's ass.  I believe that all men are just overgrown boys with deep problems communicating and that the decline of good sex in America is coincident with the decline in drive-in movie theaters from state to state.  I believe that all politicians are unprincipled crooks and I still believe that they are better than the alternative.  I believe that California is going to sink into the sea when the big one comes, while Florida is going to dissolve into madness and alligators and toxic waste. I believe that antibacterial soap is destroying our resistance to dirt and disease so that one day we'll all be wiped out by the common cold like the Martians in War of The Worlds.  I believe that the greatest poets of the last century were Edith Sitwell and Don Marquis, that jade is dried dragon sperm, and that thousands of years ago in a former life I was a one-armed Siberian shaman. I believe that mankind's destiny lies in the stars. I believe that candy really did taste better when I was a kid, that it's aerodynamically impossible for a bumblebee to fly, that light is a wave and a particle, that there's a cat in a box somewhere who's alive and dead at the same time (although if they don't ever open the box to feed it it'll eventually just be two different kinds of dead), and that there are stars in the universe billions of years older than the universe itself.  I believe in a personal god who cares about me and worries and oversees everything I do. I believe in an impersonal god who set the universe in motion and went off to hang with her girlfriends and doesn't even know that I'm alive. I believe in an empty and godless universe of causal chaos, background noise, and sheer blind luck.  I believe that anyone who says that sex is overrated just hasn't done it properly. I believe that anyone who claims to know what's going on will lie about the little things too. I believe in absolute honesty and sensible social lies too. I believe in a woman's right to choose, a baby's right to live, that while all human life is sacred there's nothing wrong with the death penalty if you can trust the legal system implicitly, and that no one but a moron would ever trust the legal system.  I believe that life is a game, that life is a cruel joke, and that life is what happens when you're alive and that you might as well lie back and enjoy it.


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That my friend, is good writing. 

 




That said, i shall be home in twenty days, if thats not a plus, i don't know what is. 


Also, 'hi manda' =), thanks for reading my blog, even though i've neglected it so. 

Thursday, July 16






its been a while...

i've been enjoying my holidays. lots of lazy days at home, sleeping, cooking and watching supernatural re-runs (two more months till season 5! i'm barely hanging on )

Transformers was all that i expected, lots of action and mayhem and explosions. classic Michael Bay. So what if the plot wasn't that developed, so what if it was just one big CGI-filled action sequence, it was fun and it was entertaining. and what's life if we can't go to the movies and enjoy a good robot death-match once in a while.

Melbourne was awesome. stayed with the sims, went to philip island, brighton beach and the mountains. watched a ton of movies, ate loads of heavenly food and shopped like there was no tomorrow. (seriously, i came home with an extra 15kg).  
we watched Wicked at the Regent theater. i love love loved the show. everything about it was great. the songs, the sets, the costumes and the story!
but i'm back in brisbane now and thanks to the sims, i'm addicted to boys before flowers. 

Half Blood Prince comes out today. i'm actually waiting till saturday to watch it so i don't get stuck with too many little kids in the cinema. rest assured that i'll put up a review after i watch it, or at least rant about how much Michael Gambon has botched the role of Dumbledore yet again.

untill then...

xxx


Sunday, June 14

stories and slow dancing in a burning room




For some people its music or running or that few moments just before you fall asleep. It can be found in children, in the arms of a soul mate, in the stars, in the rain and in the shower. Some people use adrenalin, others use much heavier substances.

Its that place in your mind that no one touches, where your thoughts go when you don’t keep track of them. Where dreams meet reality, where reality doesn’t have to be real.

For some people it’s a relief, a break from life…to escape from it all.

For me, its stories, in whatever medium. Its more then just going to a far off land or being whatever you want to be. It’s about abandoning yourself. Leaving behind all that is you, your dreams, your problems, your routine, your life. It’s embracing something else completely. Another place, another time, another person. To be for that moment, free. To let the story take you, guide you, show you what it’s supposed to, and just let it grow around you. To let it do what it needs to do and to let it leave its mark on you.

 

Because every story affects you….changes you…some in ways not as obvious as others, but they’re there nonetheless.

         

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Someone asked me what fiction was to me…

 

Fiction is the past, present and future. The world as it could be or a view of a parallel universe. Its the experience you always wanted or didn't want or have never thought of having. Its the places that exist and the places that exist only in dreams. 

Its an escape into someone else's story, into another world, another mindset, another truth. 

 

Its a movie, made from your imagination, screened on the back of your eyes for an audience of one.

 

 

Wednesday, June 3

Short Story





We had to write a 1000 word short story for my Intro to Creative writing class. I know the title is cheesy, but i suck at coming up with titles.
oh, and I really have been watching alot of crime shows...

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               A Love That Last Forever by Melissa Heng

 

I can’t breathe. The cold had seeped into my body, creeping up through my clothes. I gasped for breath, lifting my head out of the water. George, where is he?  I can’t move, I pull at the ropes that bind me to the chair and cringe as pain shoots through my shoulders. I can’t feel my hands. I see George now, slumped over in the driver’s seat next to me. His nose is almost in the water.

‘George! George, wake up, please wake up!’ I cry.

            I strain against the ropes, trying to free myself; I have to wake him up. The roar of the river is overwhelming as it pushes itself through the broken rear window. The water level in the car is rising fast: he will drown if I don’t wake him.

            ‘George!’ I scream.

            He jerks awake, coughing and sputtering as he breathes water up his nose. He flinches as he shakes the water from his face, the deep cut on his brow has stopped bleeding; but it hasn’t stopped hurting.

            ‘Wh… where are we now?’ he asks, still disorientated and trying to keep his fear from showing.

            ‘I think we’re in the river. He’s pushed us into the river! I don’t want to die George!’ I can’t keep the panic out of my voice, the water is up to my chin now.

            George struggles against his own ropes, I know it’s no use, his eyes dart all around, desperately looking for a way out, an escape. He sees something that makes his face blanche even whiter.

‘Oh my god, the sicko's still watching us!’

I turn to see what he is looking at, dreading it with every heartbeat. A small mini camera is attached to the rear view mirror, it’s cold, red light blinking at us, recording everything. I start to shiver as water trickles down my face. I don’t even know if it is from the river or if they’re my tears. How did we get here?

 

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            I open my eyes, confused by what I see around me. The rag in my mouth tastes awful and I can feel the rope cutting into my wrists. The room is bare and dusty, sheets of plastic hang on the walls and the only light is from a small dirty window. I hear a grunt behind me and I try to turn my head around to see if it’s George. I hear the jingle of keys, my eyes dart toward the door as it clicks and creaks open. A man walks in; he’s dressed all in black, he has a mask over his face and I can’t even see his eyes.

            ‘You’re finally awake.’ He says. His voice is smooth and deep and friendly. It scares the shit out of me. He reads from a file.

            ‘George and Ruby Cole. Ages 34 and 33 respectively. George is an accountant and Ruby is a librarian. You met when you were in college, dated for a while and now you’ve been married for 7 years. No kids… I guess that saves you from a custody battle in the divorce.’

            He says this all in a calm, monotonous voice, except when he says ‘divorce’, he spits it out like a dirty word. I try to ask him what he wants, but the gag around my mouth muffles my questions and all that comes forth is a babble of muted sounds. I don’t understand who he is, how he can know so much about us, about the divorce. We haven’t even signed the papers yet.

            ‘I know you still love each other.’ He says bending low towards me. ‘I’ve seen the photos, the videos. A love like that doesn’t just disappear… hmm…I think you just haven’t been putting in enough effort. A marriage takes work you know.’

            He has started circling us, I try to keep my eyes on him, try to plead with him to let us go, I can feel a thick warm liquid dripping down my hands.

            ‘You are both going to die today. It might be best to use your last few hours wisely.’ He says.

            He grabs the back of my chair, its legs scream against the ground, protesting as he turns me around. He walks over to George and turns his chair so that we’re looking at each other. The screeching sends trembles up my spine.

            ‘I think I’ll leave you two alone now,’ he says.

He pulls down both our gags. I look at George; he is still in his working clothes. I remember seeing him, passed out on the floor of our living room. I remember dropping the groceries and then feeling a sharp pain in the back of my head.

            ‘What do you want with us?’ George asks. ‘We… we can pay you. We have savings…just let us go. I’ll give you anything you want.’

            The man says nothing, but for some reason I feel that he is smiling. He turns and starts to walk out of the room.           

            ‘Wait! Hey…what do you want from us? Let us go!! WHAT DO YOU WANT?!’ George screams furiously as the door slams shut and clicks. We’re locked in.

            We sit there for what seems like hours. We try everything; we shout for help, plead with our captor to let us go, we struggle to free ourselves, but it only makes the ropes cut deeper. I’ve run out of tears and my throat is dry, I look at George the same time he looks up at me. The divorce was a mutual agreement, we had been growing apart for years and we’d lost the ability to communicate with each other. I just didn’t think he loved me anymore. But I didn’t care about that now, all I wanted was for him to hold me.

            ‘I love you Rubes. I always will.’ He whispers, as though reading my mind

            ‘I love you back’ I say, barely able to keep my voice from shaking.

A loud hissing sound pierces the silence, a thick white gas starts to pump into the room from all directions. My eyes start to water, I try to call out to George but my mouth won’t work, all I see is darkness.

 

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            He stands on the edge of the pier, breathing deeply from the effort of pushing the car. He smiles as he watches the couple on the small screen of his hand held camera. They’re saying how much they love each other, how much their love means to them. They’re trying so hard to get their hands free just so they can touch one last time. He’s made them realize what love is, he’s given them back their marriage and now, he’s making it last forever. 


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And to think i used to write 300 word compositions in secondary school. 



Saturday, May 30

i *heart* TV



Another assignment. A one page synopsis for a TV series. i am seriously enjoying this class.
I called it...
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The Collector

 

A weekly one-hour drama-fantasy series about a collector who bottles emotions. Taking the form of a man named Samael A. Thane, the collector’s origin and true nature is unknown, even to himself. All he knows is that this is what he was appointed to do, it is his purpose.

He must collect the emotion in its purest form, directly from the soul, while the human is experiencing it. He chooses people who are already prime examples of an emotion, all he needs to do is push them to the extreme to obtain the desired emotion while it is most potent and intense. After it is extracted, it is taken completely: the person never feels it again. This has never affected him.

He is obsessive, solitary and always rational. A cross between Dexter, Constantine and Dream (also known as Morpheus, from the graphic novel sandman by Neil Gaiman), he is not human, and he does not feel the same things they feel.

He has an apartment in New York, which is frequently visited by Socrates, a stray, untamed tomcat. A street smart, young, Latino boy, Remy, helps him run small errands. Remy’s contract states that he is not allowed to ask questions but his intuitive nature allows him to guess something of what Samael is. Although reluctant at first, their relationship develops such that Remy comes to be his conscience and confidant. There is also Mrs. Stefanov, the 74-year-old landlady with both selective hearing and memory. She always over cooks, loves talking about her past and always asks him about his mother. He never answers. Then, there is Nora, the quiet independent librarian who lives in the apartment next door. He almost took Love from her once.

Each episode begins with the collector extracting the emotion and bottling it. He talks about the emotion (voice over), its word origins, how it affects people and the world. What he does or does not understand about it. He quotes philosophers.

A subject is then introduced, their life revealed through the events that shape their personalities. Through various disguises, dreams and planted thoughts, he manipulates them, pushes them to react, to feel what he needs them to.

The series will have on-going story lines as well as follow a case-by-case structure, like ‘House’ or ‘Supernatural’. Certain emotions may take only one episode. Others, like Love, which has different forms, may take a few. As the series develops, so does Samael’s understanding of the world and of himself. As he discovers fragments of his origins and of those who appointed him his task, he comes to question the collection’s true purpose and what he will do when he completes it. He delves deeper into darker feelings, exploring Anger, Fear, Grief and Hate.

The first season culminates with him having an encounter with War, one of the four horsemen of the apocalypse.

Each episode ends with the Collector leaving the human, releasing him back into the normal time stream and taking the bottle back to his home.  He then labels it and shelves it with the rest of his collection.

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remember...you saw it here first!

 

Wednesday, May 13

First assignment


one of my first assignments was to write a short paragraph, that had an emotional through line and that said something about me...

this is it...

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There’s a moment between waking and sleeping. You’re still taking part in the dream. You want it to last because things are amazing or because you just want to see how it ends. How you’ll react. But the little things start to show. Revealing it all to be in your head, and as fantasy and reality merge, the realization of what’s happening dawns on you as the sun creeps through your blinds. You try to cling to the story, the feelings, turn them into memories before they fade. But the demands of the day start to overtake, poking into your consciousness. You open your eyes a bit, and the comfort of sleep dissipates. There’s stuff in your eyes, you need to brush your teeth, you know its going to be a bad hair day. You stretch, trying to purge the aches and fatigue from your limbs. Maybe you’ll take just five more minutes. You glance at your clock.

9:45

don’t I have class at 10!  Shit.

Sunday, May 10

just because...neil gaiman is a genius


"quotes"


I wish I had an origin story for you. When I was four, I was bitten by a radioactive myth.
-on how his interest in mythology started

Give a man a fish, and he's creating art. But teach him to fish, and soon you'll have a pool full of exploding koi.
-random quote

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' or 'how very perceptive' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love.
-The character "Rose Walker" in The Sandman #65

Life — and I don't suppose I'm the first to make this comparison — is a disease: sexually transmitted, and invariably fatal.
-Death Talks About Life


In short..i love neil gaiman's work...novels, short stories or graphic novels. check them out if you like fantasy or if you just like good story telling. 

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the pilot


hello people,

so i've started a blog. i guess what with all the writing i'm doing for school, i've decided i might as well post some of my ideas, work, reviews...etc...

i've just counted, and found that i'm currently watching 4 on-going series weekly, 9 other series on and off (not including reruns)..and almost 3 movies a week. 

so...you can expect lots of post to be about stuff i'm watching! ..stuff i'm doing here in australia, random thoughts of the day and the occasional whinge here and there.

thats about it for now. till next time......